u/CJVratixBactaChef

I feel like the sun has left my life and nothing matters anymore. I work in a job that requires problem solving for people but I just cant get into it because every problem seems so trivial compared to this incredible calamity and it is hard for me to sympathize nor care. I am working very hard to keep controlled and not lash out. How are you all doing? All the best to you and your loved ones.

On top of my own tremendous heartbreak and brokenness, my other dog has also lost his best friend in the entire universe. He didnt get to see her pass, her death came as a surprise at the animal hospital.

He cries on her bed and looks around the house for her. He sometimes can be happy, we were outside the other day and he happily wagged his tail and said hello to another dog and they sniffed each other. But when we get home he has spells of being very sad and is clearly missing my other dog who has passed as he looks over at the direction of her bed.

Helping him through his grief has been helping me take my mind off my own grief. But we are both hurting quite a lot and it has been difficult. Did anyone else here have to help a grieving dog( in addition to your own heartbreak)?

Im trying to get back into some semblance of regular life after losing my angel, my light of my life. But it's impossible. I cant enjoy TV or movies or reading. I cant enjoy exercise. I dont enjoy eating anymore. I dont want to socialize, because the topic will either come up or I have to nod and smile like it didnt happen.

I have buried myself in work, cleaning, random chores around the house.

What have you all been up to in order to move on?

Its unbelievably rough without my dog. I didnt know pain like this existed. I have trained martial arts and have been hit very hard in training and competitions, but I didnt know this level of pain could possibly exist.

She was 12 years old black lab, almost 13. I miss our walks. I miss our ten minutes of saying hello to each other when I get home from work. I miss feeding her her favorite home cooked meal. I miss her dancing before she gets her food bowl, or before we go on our walk.

I keep crying incessantly whenever I think of her. This is devastating. I dont even know what the point is of eating, drinking, working, or getting up from bed or anything right now.

I always thought id eventually get another dog if this one passed but now I am not so sure. This is breaking me.

How did a Sith, Belia Darzu, have a stronghold on Tython, which had long been a Jedi controlled planet(at least up through swtor era)? I didnt think the Sith had any presence there. Not to mention it is in the deep core which is difficult to navigate anyway, and firmly in the Republic controlled part of the galaxy.

Maybe I am overthinking this lol.