Hi all, I started on generic (20->30mg) at the end of July in 2025. So far it's been working really well:
Increased productivity, anger issues IMPROVED, social anxiety gone, better quality of life overall. The catch? I could no longer feel intensely about anything.
However: I was unfortunately a victim to the "Great October 2025 Generic Recall" (yes I named it that) and suffered the consequences.... EXTREME mood swings, crazy impulsive behavior, BAWLING almost EVERY DAY (exacerbated by school stress) short fuse in general (my mom would have to walk on eggshells around me to not set me off), brain fog, and
TW: ⚠️
>!suicidal at times....!<
The days I would take breaks from them I would feel like "me" again, so I finally made the push for Prior Authorization and got on brand name (still 30 mg) in February.
It's been so much better, but now? I feel completely like smooth SpongeBob. For example:
-Let's say I do happen to cry about something (usually stress) I immediately stop after two minutes after I realize it and my face drops like robot. Then I go back to being fine and shrugging my problem off like "oh that's life!"
- Negative Emotion Example: I watched Spirited Away again for the umpteenth time and the scene where spoiler: >!Chihiro is crying while eating bc she misses her family!< NEVER FAILS to make me bawl my eyes out. I didn't cry not a single drop and just thought, "man this scene is sad..."
-Positive Emotion Example: Scoring concert tickets to an artist that I've waited since COVID for tickets to see because everything got canceled. All I could do was say "Omg yay!" And went on about my day.
Most instances I shrug off, and while it is great that I am OVERALL in a better mood/spirits than usual I just feel like i'm so much more mild-mannered (more than a usual person) now and it’s beginning to bother me. I know Vyvanse also significantly affects the disposition of people with Bipolar, but I do not have it... so what gives!?!?!
Any insights or comments would be helpful and thanks for reading :) also apologies for any typos I may have made.