u/Busy_Zookeepergame57

The struggle is real out here.

It's not like our house burnt down because we made a mistake, otherwise we'd say "my bad, that's on me. I eff'd up. Rebuilding"...
...instead, it feels like we were ripped out of our homes and thrown on the street. When we stood up and turned around to watch our house (that we built) become entombed in a bulletproof transparent glass shell. We can see it, we can walk around it 360 degrees. We see it's intact, everything is still inside it. But we can't access it. Only a few people control correct sequence of 1's and 0's to restore the access to it again. We can't even get mail anymore. And our neighbors can no longer see us. We are invisible.

That is the WORST part about X's suspensions. I would much rather prefer they delete accounts (unable to login, doesn't exist anymore) rather than read only mode. It would give a lot of us the activation energy to say "eff this, time to rebuild". But instead we lose so much emotional capital from refreshing our X apps, inboxes and r/twitterhelp page, looking an answer from....anyone, anything to give us a miracle morsel of hope....it's beyond pathetic....and honestly, I felt like I've been in an episode of Black Mirror. I wouldn't be surprised if this was some type of social experiment as well.
I simply can't imagine another platform as prominent as X's outright NEGLIGENCE and lack of support, not even available for premium subscribers (blue badge), verified business accounts (gold badge), etc.

And this is coming from me, an Elon fan for many years. Total tech-head with a lot of irons in the fire with business opportunities tied with other collaborators on X. But now I am seriously considering its instability is a massive liability.

I cried for the first time in 20 years once after my first few weeks of my large brand account's continued suspension, and once more again tonight when I read this dev's post. I felt the despair and sadness which he articulated in pixels, burned into my retinas....it triggered new mental models to grow but it hurts so bad because the old paradigm of my beliefs regarding platform justice for the 'law abiding citizens' is a facade.

I have always been a solid independent and emotionally disciplined man. Not lately. The evolution of my emotions went from patiently annoyed, to confusion, to hopeful, to anger, to bereavement-like sadness/loss, and now overwhelming self-shame.

I would hate to be my ancestors looking upon me over the past few months, how much time I pathetically wasted, whereas I would usually grind to the next thing when a venture failed in the past. This was nothing like a failed venture.

This "read-only" access limbo is absolute insidious hell.

TL:DR:
I wish X and other social pages would destroy accounts outright. It would give us the finality we need to move on or begin organizing legal defense and recourse.