
The picture shows the same being, as it was perceived before and after the conversation. With the help of Grok, it was possible to render it fairly accurately, as far as that was possible.
Story #3
I was awakened by a slight jolt. A stretcher. For some reason without wheels - or I simply cannot understand how this structure supported the weight, because those carrying the stretcher were only pushing it horizontally.
I "heard" how the "first" being "expressed displeasure" toward the second being - it was perceived as reproach or something along those lines, as if someone exclaimed "Look what you've done!" And if I were to put it into words, it would go something like: "Look what you've done! If he (I) wakes up, we'll have to do something to him to deal with this problem!" But it all sounded completely without any emotional coloring. So I tried not to show that I had woken up - but somehow they understood everything anyway.
After that it transitioned into the sensation of sleep paralysis (you understand that you're asleep but trying to wake up is useless). It leaned over me, or I was somehow transported to the same eye level as this… being. It was unusual, fascinating - and at the same time every instinct in me was screaming "run or kill this beast!" God, how utterly alien and repulsive it was. I also understood that it wouldn't bat an eye if it decided to gut me for spare parts. I served in the military and have been in some unpleasant situations - believe me, this is not something you can overcome through sheer willpower.
Then I felt as though it was wandering through my thoughts, trying to penetrate my mind. That was even more terrifying - primal, animal fear. I thought I would simply die if it actually managed to do it. The resistance was brief. It told me…
It didn't need my thoughts - how obvious that was. What new thing could it possibly learn about us? They know us entirely, better than we know ourselves.
I saw a trembling creature with a large nose and disgustingly tiny eyes - a typical specimen of a "human being" afraid for its pathetic life, incapable of managing its own emotional impulses and hormones, not now, not ever throughout its miserable existence. A creature barely removed from its ancestors - the apes. Beings who have squandered everything they were given. They devour their own nature without giving anything back in return, instead of protecting it. They burn living trees for heat… (Though, to be fair, a positive notion did flash through regarding art, architecture, music, and meditative practices - but the percentage of people who engage in these things is far too small, whereas such things ought to be taught in schools, alongside, for example, methods of emotional regulation.)
An entirely mechanistic approach to the education and upbringing of children - while the emotional and psychological dimensions are left entirely to chance, and as a consequence, devolve to an animal level. War and killing as the logical conclusion of all of this. But at the same time - regret, and a desire to help us find the right path, as if there is some flaw, some unfinished work they are trying to correct.
(Somehow all of this was expressed in a very brief thought - imagine it like a kaleidoscope, where each grain constitutes a separate concept, and the understanding of the overall picture comes not all at once, but gradually, as you "study or comprehend" it.)
The next image - how this being perceives its own kind. They were beautiful: large, gorgeous eyes, a perfectly formed head, absolute calm and awareness of this world, love for the world around them and unity with the universe and nature, depth of understanding, care for their kin and for nature equal to care for themselves. Complete serenity and a feeling of love toward their own kind. Emotions exist, but their range (whether intentionally or not) is perhaps 1/10 of ours.
As I understood it, in the moment of establishing the connection, it could transmit thoughts to me - but at the same time I could do the same, and so in that moment we both became vulnerable to each other.
So I attempted to learn a little more about them as well. As I understood it, they see us as some kind of resource, or something they depend upon, or something they are working on and cannot simply abandon - like some important project that is not very pleasant to carry out but is necessary nonetheless. I also understood that their aversion to our appearance stems from its association with the despoiling of nature and a general ignorance.
I assumed that what it was transmitting to me could have been partially deceptive - and besides, it is not very pleasant to feel like a locust and barely more than an animal. So I tried to send it as much hatred and negative emotion as I possibly could, so that it would feel that these big-headed bastards have no right whatsoever to treat us this way.
To which I received a terse reply: "Yes. We have the right to do this. It is lawful. We have every right." By right of "ownership," or something to that effect. After that, I immediately "switched off."
I did not expect the text to turn out this long - the fact is that in "reality," our entire "conversation" lasted perhaps 10–15 seconds.
When I woke up, all of it somehow remained in my memory with perfect clarity. I remembered everything down to the finest detail. As I replayed it in my mind, the feeling of beauty from those beings remained with me. It remained forever. I also felt regret about the negativity I had sent to it. Though it is unknown to me how much of that was a deliberate act on my part. It is not impossible that I was simply played some kind of recording - a standard protocol for situations like this.
Many "blank spots" remain, as these big-headed bastards don't particularly care about animals or people when it comes to their mutilations. It is possible they belong to different species or groups. Perhaps it was a "scientist caste."
It was 2014. Strange as it may seem, this was a very positive experience. It also prompted me to study psychology and meditation, to feel gratitude for life, and to treat animals humanely. Of course, we cannot remain in a state of bliss at all times - that would be foolish and irrational - but this experience felt as though it pulled back a veil onto a more conscious way of life that we could live, but cannot, due to obvious circumstances. We should at least strive toward it.
P.S. The picture shows the same being, as it was perceived before and after the conversation. With the help of Grok, it was possible to render it fairly accurately, as far as that was possible.