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I was really depressed in the past. Before I met God I was diagnosed with depression and was on medication for it. I went off of it shortly after I accepted Jesus. I am religious and I do have faith in God but latley I’ve been depressed lately and the thoughts were exactly like before I met Christ, if not more. I don’t want to tell my boyfriend or loved ones it’s really bad because I’m afraid of the judgement and wondering if I have lack of faith or anything. I keep on praying for God to take it away but it’s not at all. At night I’m getting no sleep because I’m up all night with thoughts and my mind goes so wild. I honestly don’t know what to do. I keep on praying and reading the word but it’s not doing anything honestly. It feels like I don’t feel the Holy Spirit and I’m just doubting myself. I’ve gone into my old ways into cursing and depression. And I’m scared if I’m depressed then God will take away my boyfriend and things I love since I’m going through it and not myself. any spiritual advice would be great.