I am 27 years old, based in NYC, and in recovery for addiction (AA). As of right now I am going to be going back to school for a BBA in Finance.
I almost went back to school as premed a few years back and I am once again having doubts. My reasoning for finance is stability and good $ straight out of school. It would allow me to lead a life where I can pursue fulfillment outside of work and have a family etc. However, I also feel that I would feel guilty working to make the rich richer and you never know where AI might take things and put me out of work or at least make it more difficult to secure work.
My reasoning for wanting to be a doctor is that I want to help people in a big way. I think dedicating your life to serving others in their darkest moments is commendable. I perform well in chaos and pressure. I think I'm smart enough to handle it, at least I tell myself that. I just worry that I'm challenging myself to greatly. What if I burn out? What if I finish undergrad and don't want to go to med school or healthcare at all? Then I'm stuck with a degree I don't want. If I go through with it I won't have a life for myself until I'm nearly 40 years old and then who knows even then. How would I raise a family in all that?
I haven't done much with my life so far and have battled greatly with mental health and addiction. By choosing medicine I'd be disregarding all the evidence that says that I can't do this. But at the same time I feel like I want to be helping people. Any advice?