u/BurningTree_Shaman

This is my personal opinion.
I was thinking about schizophrenia in a bigger picture.

I honestly believe that schizophrenia is a trait that gave an evolutionary advantage to some people in history and to "clans" to which these people belonged.

We know that schizophrenia can come with highly functioning brains. And the abilities of metacognition, conclusion making, creativity, higher thinking are in my opinion associated to my personal schizophrenic trait.

I believe that schizophrenia was a trait that many gifted people in history had. I cannot say that Newton, Einstein, Tesla, Da Vinci, Mozart, Beethoven or alike had schizophrenia but I can imagine that there were people that drove inventions, creativity and the evolution of mankind by the "drive" that even a slight schizophrenic spectrum gives.

Of course many schizophrenic persons in history are not in a positive light. There are so many roads this trait can take but it can - in my opinion and under the right circumstances - drive a mind to great outcomes.

Today we schizophrenic-spectrum people are struggling more than ever I believe.
AI takes over in creative fields and creates connections faster than the single human brain.
Universities are flooded by "normalos" which is good but makes high functioning schizophrenic people struggle (I've experienced that).

To me:

I was described as lazy, rebellious, and uncooperative.
I was just struggling with my intrusive thoughts and my psychotic symptoms.
I was wearing lots of "masks" how a psychologist would describe it but in reality I've become a real-life actor. I was masking my inner struggles to the outside world.
I tried real hard to change, studied at three different universities but failed every single time because of stress. Stress makes my coping mechanisms fail miserably.
At the age of 33 I had a highly psychotic and maniac outburst and was recovered at a psychiatry for the first time in my life. It was a game changer.

Today I'm still struggling because of experiments with medication for the last few years (Abilify alone doesn't work for my positive symptoms).
Now I'm getting Abilify and Amisulpride and I'm getting better. I just had a great sensation today, see my other post.

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What I'm trying to say is Hey, we're great people and I strongly believe that we can make the difference in this world, in the small or the big picture.

I want to share this. Maybe you had this sensation, too, at some point.

I just took the bus, and my brain was free, no over stimulation, no thinking, no voices, no psychotic symptoms.

I found myself at one point checking what I was thinking and doing for the last minute, and I couldn't remember. This is new.

I then realized that my brain was just totally ok with the situation and not doing anything.

I thought I wanted to share this. This happens very rarely to me and might be a sign that the recent addition of Amisulpride to my abilify is working.

I hope you all are well and wish you a great day.

Awesome.

I was recently rethinking my medication with my psychiatrist and I didn't come unprepared.

Here in Europe we have Amisulpride which can be given in addition to abilify. Seems that the US market doesn't have access to Amisulpride, however, you have Cobenfy right?

My change was adding Amisulpride because of my heavy positive symptoms.

How does Cobenfy work in your brains? What does it do with your positive symptoms and what does it do with your negative symptoms?

And for those in the US on abilify I feel sorry for the lack of Amisulpride... But I heard of a startup that wants to change that (...?)