Personal Mandela tonight, really messed up
Decided to rewatch The Doors as my partner had never seen it before. So many people in the movie that I love and forgot were in there. Like Michael Wincott.
Went to IMDb to look at the cast afterwards, since I love discovering where else I've seen people. Michael Wincott's picture in the cast list was one I'd never seen before of him.
That's odd, I thought, because I have been a fan of his for such a long time. Like, The Crow and Dead Man and Strange Days and Aliens 4. I'll watch things just to see him. And I clearly remember, being so sad when I heard he'd passed away, sometime just in the last few years. This wasn't some rumor or vague memory. I remember being pretty broken up about it! Seeing obituaries, and a video retrospective of his work! I was actively sad that I'd never see him again in anything new.
I opened his page to see where the image was from, which was Nope. I see he hasn't done anything since then, 2022, which jibes. But then, I see there is only his birthdate, and how old he is. No date of death.
Sometimes pages don't get updated. I go to Wikipedia, same thing. I search, none of the articles come up that I remember reading. He is, in fact, alive. I am shaken to the core
I tell my partner of 8 years. He doesn't believe me. He firmly believes I've convinced myself of a false memory. He won't even entertain this.I feel so, so alone.
I have never had any psychosis. I'm not on anything. Never had meds to go off of, either.
I would NEVER misremember someone that I like SO much dying! I remember being impressed by him in The Crow. Dead Man is one of my favorite movies of all time, and again, I have been a fan since then. I feel insane.
I'm very, very glad to know he's still with us. But holy f. I am freaked out and also mad at my partner for not believing me. And I have no way to prove anything.
While this is not my first Mandela effect this is just so ridiculous. I don't even know how to cope.
I know that none of you will remember him dying, probably. That's not the point. It seems to be only me. I just want to hear from other people who also are considered to have a firm grasp on reality who have had this happen. I need to feel less alone in this. And also, how to cope with a partner who staunchly won't believe in the possibility that you are right about something like this. It's gut wrenching.