u/BumblebeeJust1619

(Throwaway acc) ( I’m also in another African country getting ready to apply for visas insha Allah)
(Give your brutal advice please especially the diaspora)

We are six kids grow up in khaleej then aabo moved us to africa and he spent most of his savings on GCSEs schools and IB and sending the four oldest to Europe where they are all living their own lives.
Anyways when I just finished school and I applied for university unfortunately my dad got sick and paralysed in Somalia and as I was the last remaining son in the household at the time and the rest were studying uni abroad I had to move back to Somalia .
I lived there for 9 years and i couldn’t work or study as everytime I tried to do something aabos condition got worse and I was basically a caregiver .
Anyways both parents died الله يرحمهم nd ever since then I have been trying to start uni for the past two three years . First in Kenya then now in Europe . But unfortunately circumstances like finances or family problems or my sisters marriages issues prevented my chances.
Now today I got accepted in a European university but none of my siblings are willing to commit to pay the fees or sponsor me . They’d rather I do the illegal method of coming to Europe or marriage then apply for asylum and I don’t wanna do that .
Anyways my mental deadline is August. And I decided if not university I’ll move back home and take over my dad’s business where I’ll make about 900$ a month .
In my mind I feel like I am gonna be a total failure and I fear I’ll have a complete mental breakdown.
But I’m tired of begging uncles and aunts and siblings to pay for visas and university fees and the general feeling I get is you’re an old guy go do it yourself .
I’m not asking for any help but just advice and one of my other fears is I’ve been left behind . Especially in terms of finding a girl or being educated or having a western passport or living abroad as I know my potential and to be stuck in Somalia as feels like I gave up.
Sorry this was long