u/BulkyFeature4088

I am (F) 25, recently got married to the loml, and I now feel disconnected from everyone in my social circle. Couple dates feel performative and boring. My personal friendships feel like everyone is fighting for their lives and I don’t have the capacity to listen anymore. I want something different, to move to Australia maybe and enjoy the sun and nature (I live in ldn), to move anywhere to start over. I don’t know if i’m running from me or them or if the problem is me or them. I also feel like me smoking a zoot every night and doom scrolling for hours doesn’t help either but I’ve made a plan to decrease both significantly. Anyone feel this way? Have advice on what to do to cope with it?