u/Buggsyislonely

Hey hi hello, thank you for stopping by to read and give advice :)

So I’ve always hated school. I hated elementary, middle, and high school. I was cautious about college but wanted to do psychology so I decided to enroll into college because my state has programs to pay for it. My mom has been pushing for me to stay in college year round and so I’m almost done with my associates. My last long break was spit of high-school before fall term started my first year of college

But now I don’t want to do psychology. I don’t know what I want to do, and I don’t know what I want my job to be. I’ve thought about looking into VFX animation, video editing, and animation in general. Just creative fields in general I guess. However, I don’t want to be in college any longer. I hate it. It has drained me.

It started off with some late nights, then a late assignment or two. Then I stopped caring about due dates. Then I stopped getting to classes on time. Usually 30+ minutes late. I didn’t and don’t care about my classes even though it’s stuff I find interesting, the course work and classes just seem like to much. I’ve had to kick myself into gear to keep trying to pass this and next term but it’s been at the death of my sleep schedule, my eating habits, and my self care.

I have ADHD and deal with burnout as a cycle pretty regularly, however I think this is the hardest it’s been. Looking forward it feels impossible. I also know that if I DO drop out after my associates I am probably never going to return. But I don’t want that to doom me, but I feel staying in college will also doom me yk? It’s also hard to find interesting careers because I’ll change interests so frequently. My only dream job I’ve had since I was young was a YouTuber but that sounds fun to start as a hobby and hope for money rather than trying to rely on it and praying for success.

I’m just really lot, and don’t have people I feel I can comfortable look to for advice for steps that would have experience enough to help me make an informed decision about my potential future. Both my best friend, boyfriend, and coworkers have all said college is killing me but I don’t wanna screw myself over by quitting now.

What should I do???

(Thank you for reading this massive chunky block of text, I hope your having a great day ❤️)

Heyo! I’ve been drawing pretty much all my life however I often don’t see improvement. I dropped it for a year or so but I got into really trying with art again but this time learning fundamentals. I’m really trying to do anatomy but I can never seem to get it right. Along with all this trying though I realize I’m not trying anything else. I draw either the same character or two or the same anatomy pose again and again to try and get better but without success. I wanna learn the rest but I fear I won’t be able to without learning anatomy first and the lack of small successes is frustrating. Advice?