u/Budget_Plum7524

I'll be honest, it's taken me a while to know what role I want to go into and that's why my CV looks so bad.

Here is a list of the jobs I've had. Please give me some advice?

(The TA job is the same job twice)

Job 5: TA January 2025 to present

Job 5: admin may 2024 to December 2024

Job 4: TA January 2022 to May 2024

Job 3: admin April 2021 to January 2022

Job 2: admin July 2020 to March 2021 (COVID)

Job 1: customer assistant august 2017 to January 2020 (left to focus on uni)

I have just done the Kaplan practice exam for the AAT L2 POBC and I failed terribly. It was worded so more confusingly and difficult than the practice AAT ones. On the AAT practice mocks I'm getting 90% and the Kaplan I got 47%. Is this just me?

I wonder if others can relate. So for me I've always DREADED when my elderly pets and family members pass away because I know I'll have to put on a brave face and show up happy for the children.

My worse nightmare happend twice in just over a month. First my grandma passed away quickly from an aggressive cancer. Literally less than 2 weeks after getting diagnosed she passed away. I had 2 days off to grieve and then I had to literally push my grief and sadness to the side and literally ignore it when I went back to work. Horrible! I feel like I was not honouring her memory or even grieving her properly because for my own mental health I had to block it out whilst at work. Then, just a few days ago my beloved family cat passed away. Again, a day I was literally dreading. And guess what, today I have to again go into the school and literally block out any single sad thought about it and pretend it didn't happen.

Working in a school with children it's always about putting your own feelings last and making sure you're in a good mood for the kids. You could be having the worse day in the world but you still have to ignore it and be happy for the children.

I hate it so much.