u/BrushDistinct3950

Has anyone gone through a spiritual awakening, where they realize that a major majority of the New Age spiritual things that are out there are really just Theosophy and I AM movements recycled?

I’m not imposing this to be contrarian or to cause a fight and argument. I have legitimate questions and I’m looking for engagement. I have a hard time, trying to understand individuals perspectives that seem to be either devoid of understanding or understand that a lot of of the modern terminology and thought within New Age spirituality it is based on these old premise ideas.

With that being said what’s the good that came out of these movements and that are beneficial for spirituality obviously some of the things that I’ve read such as area race and other aspects like that which actually aided as a specific regime and Germany during the 1930s to 1940s and a lot of other racist tropes that existed.

I guess I’m just exhausted of all these various perspectives and not having a concise answer, maybe it’s just my ADHD making me so hyper fixated on a particular subject matter but anyone else question things like this and so forth?

So I’m pretty open in my spirituality, I’d say I am a Christian but very progressive. Anyways, I was listening to a guided meditation by Neil Cooper (RIP), I listened to him many many years ago when I was a teenager exploring the chakras. In this video he talked about the violet flame, I also seen reiki practitioners talk about it.

I was doing some reading and it seems to be attributed to Saint-Germaine. Further digging revealed some foundation here in the states. Boy was that…interesting.. the rabbit hole I went down seemed to be about two people the Ballards. Apparently it was and still a racist theosophical offshoot, taking the teaching of Saint-Germaine to an extreme? Only English translations, white brotherhood (which I got two perspectives that say it’s about white magic and one about racial purity and people groups.)

I’m assuming, just like Christianity, the teachings of someone can be manipulated in a way to serve an agenda or what have you.

Does anyone have legitimate experience and understanding they care to share with me? Book recommendations? Is the I AM really the great I AM energy? I’m very fascinated by this phenomena I have seen thus far, but I can’t imagine this universal love being so.. racist.