Who am i?

I'm myself.

Why?

It is very hard to explain. I feel like the center of my perceptions.

Why?

Why that makes me feel who I am? I would say that it is an accumulative process of past increasing

Why?

My identity condenses through experiences of the past. Although I know I'm not only my identity, name is a perfect example of very compressed information we could call identity

why?

Identity is only something I use to explain myself to others, but as I'm explaining, there must be an explainer. As I was writing this, I noticed myself speaking with "we". It is my standard way of thinking as I assume most people would understand what I'm saying.

why?

I can't persist without others. That's an honest thought. Organisms aim to preserve oneself. One could call it narcissism, others common sense.

why?

perhaps in the end it comes all to common sense and the obviousness of the fact that we are what we are. There is no denying our own experiences even though we can't know if other experiences exist.

why?

To deny one's own existence is the deepest part where I found my most like Identity. Even though to others my identity is obvious, inside of me it it the hardest calculation.

why?

If I rid myself of everything related to my identity, then I would be closest to that who I am. To get to this conclusion, I had to question very deeply my own existence.

why?

I had to question it, because I had to find enough reason to accept the obviousness of it all. There is so much apparent complexity everywhere around me, so I built the most complex narrative to deny the fact that there is no magic.

Why?

The narrative I built was a defense mechanism, because my ego is really fragile. Ego wants to make itself the hero, the villain and everything between. It is the greediest part of myself. So of course it couldn't accept the fact that it resides within a vulnerable shell, irrelevant in the cosmic scale and everything was already obvious. No need to analyze, ponder, amaze it.

why?

My ego was never content, being tied to myself. It knew that it wasn't the boss. Still I've worked a lot with my ego. I give him some attention from time to time. Let it be the crazy greedy part of me, which I can't be due to societal consensus.

Why?

My ego is a very large part of me. Perhaps the single most effective driving force within myself. It is the part I identify as most. The greedy god complexity within me. If I can't be immortal, why not aim to feel and understand yourself as God in a kind of psychotic "illusion".

why?

Due to social consensus, we kind of agree on what is the correct way of being. Least harm to others, most amount of enjoyment to oneself. This is really hard calculation to balance out. If I'm too harmless, I get taken advantage by others. Most enjoyment at the expense of others. Balance is perfect narcissism, where I understood that by doing least harm, I'm maximizing my potential for upcoming enjoyment. So perfect narcissist doesn't abuse others. I calculate transactions to balance out as much as possible. Reciprocal transaction. We understand that both want these things out of each other and with correct precision, a calculation is possible to feel like neither party feels like they're being taken advantage of. This transactional value is very dynamic, needing corrections regularly. Everything in this world has a value. I'm pretty great at "feeling" the value of things. For myself I mean, we all differ. So through calculations I can match pretty well transactionally.

why?

It all comes back down to my want to live. My ego wants to live. I guess I want to live. I don't know what I am or aren't so it is pretty much impossible to assume if It has a property like death.

why?

Is the I even definable, or is without definition. Every attempt to understand something, which is beyond my capability to comprehend. Like what do you mean an organism just happened to evolve to have a capability to be conscious of our selves.

why?

After Identity, I have the next way to identify. The observer, consciousness. That, which observes my experience. After a lot of thought I've come to the realization, that consciousness actually doesn't observe, rather it is a mirror.

why?

See what I'm trying to explain. Everything is, but a part of me, where then is the real I. I have all of these very important distinct parts of me. These parts assemble as me. The main process ran.

why?

Main process, Process as a word is really defining as it truly is. Everything affects everything and I'm just on a ride towards something, maybe on tracks, or maybe not.

why?

Because the I is actually I'Ing :D attempting to be itself through all of these extremely complex systems. Greedy in a sense that it wants to both feel like the first, the culmination and also the rival, ego :D

why?

In the end I come to the conclusion I am I. :D Circling all the way back to the question of how, but wait. We can go for a round two :D

Why?

The conclusion always circles back to its roots. Bringing in new information, which increases the definition of myself to myself better each time the cycle happens.