Close to 40 with lifelong PE. I used to be addicted to porn when I was a virgin, and relapsed again for a long time in frustration after discovering I had PE.
Recently I've been trying to masturbate for long periods of time without any porn, but I'm finding it hard to focus and I keep losing my erection.
If I try to fantasize about something sexy, it keeps escalating too quickly into something kinky and it brings me to the edge too fast. I think my brain is f'ed up from all the crap I watched over the years.
If I watch porn I'm able to stay erect but most of the porn is so twisted. If I'm lucky I'd be able to find a very vanilla porn which helps me keep my focus just enough without going overboard.
So is it bad to use porn as an aid to keep myself erect during masturbation? I think maybe I can find something softcore to help me just enough along the way.