Hey everyone,
For reference, I’m a 25 year old Male. Here recently I’ve gotten sober. While, I will say I don’t believe I drank more than most. Over the last 5-6 years I’ve had “rocky experiences” to say the least. I’ve only ever had an affinity for beer. Through a major life event I drank what felt like every night for about a year with occasional days off. Through college I also drank a fair amount of beers. Over the past year and a half I’ve started taking fitness seriously and cut out drinking almost entirely. But it never left me completely if that makes sense. One month id drink 4-5 times a week. But I’ve always had 3-5 months completely dry. And then after hitting a fitness goal I would drink on the weekends. Keep in mind, my fiance thinks I’m absolutely insane to even be concerned. But Google kinda has me on serious edge. Especially with compensated Cirrhosis.
Here recently I’m looking to start a family which led me to just give up everything. I need to be more productive and spend time on the weekends prepping and assisting my significant other. However, the more active I’ve been in various subreddits (I talked to a friend about it and he recommended me look into Reddit communities to see if that’d help). I’ve gotten a fair amount of health anxiety. I have absolutely no symptoms (I know that doesn’t really matter for decompensated cirrhosis). But at the end of the day I’m still worried. I have a doctors appointment this Friday (First time I’ve been in 3 years). Had bloodwork through Hone health alittle over a year since I was looking at getting some GLPS and my AST and ALT where slightly elevated but everything else like Albumin and what not was in check. Talked to the doctor about my recent weight loss (lost about 20-30 pounds) in a very short and agressive period of time and he told me it was most likely that even though I’ve talked to him about my past habits.
But I can’t lie, I’ve been googling this and that over the last week or two. My family on my fathers side also had a long line of 20-30 year stents of alcoholism drinking hard booze and they’ve all been sober for years and are all medically ok. But I’ve read that over each generation they can pass off there “abused liver genes” whatever that means.
Any advice to help with this anxiety would be greatly appreciative. Not looking for a doctors diagnosis or anything like that haha. Just wondering if anybody’s been through something similar to me that’s all. And if so, how did you cope with it between now and the time you went to your doctors appointment.