I am studying Tafseer using Bayyinah institute and was wondering if anyone has notes from the lectures? I’m struggling to keep up with making notes whilst listening to the lectures, and the notes I am making aren’t reflecting what I’m being taught accurately.
I’m currently on Surah inshiqaq. If anyone has any notes or tips on how to translate or transcribe the videos into good notes, I’d greatly appreciate it.
Jazakallah Khair
I feel so upset. I finally hit my goal weight and then last night I binged on 3000 calories due to lack of control and discipline. I binged on 1500-2000 and went to bed and then woke up at 4am (my mum is going abroad so I woke up to see her to the airport) and binged on another 1500 out of guilt . I can’t help but feel so disappointed and frustrated. I worked so hard to lose the weight and now i feel like I’m back to square one. I feel angry, if only I hadn’t had the extra 1500 when I woke up.
Also the fact that everything I binged on, I didn’t even enjoy? I could have saved those calories on something worth it 😭
I think what hurts the most is that It all could have been easily avoided. I’ve been doing so well with fuelling my body properly and honouring my cravings and hunger signals (I’ve got a history of an ED). I was craving chocolate last night so ate some, and I felt satisfied after. But then I decided to keep grazing in the kitchen and it spiralled into a binge.
The journey to losing it all again feels so laborious, and I can’t help but feel discouraged. Will I just be stuck in this cycle forever ? I feel so tired and frustrated
I plan to go to the gym today ( not push myself farther than normal) and just eat as normal , and try to get through the next few days by distracting myself from the sadness and disappointment I seem to be drowning in right now.
Edit: thank you for all your comforting and reassuring comments. It’s helped me put things into perspective and feel a bit better about myself . It’s reassuring to know others have also been in the same position, and not let it hold you back. I realise I just need to get through the discomfort of today and continue as normal.