I (25M) have been out of a very toxic relationship for a few months now. We met at work and now will still have to work together on occasion. My Ex partner (23F) was extremely controlling and dominating and I feel so stupid because I allowed it to co tinue and I allowed myself to be taken advantage of by this demon. She would get very angry and unpleasant if things didn't go her way. I would try to be supportive at all times but was met with nothing in return. She blamed much of her behaviour and various disorders on her past relationship but looking back I think this may have been an excuse. There was little to no intimacy due to her being 'stressed' and having an apparent headache nearly everyday. She would comment on my eating choices despite having major eating and body image disorders herself which she refused to ever talk to me about or allow me to offer any support. There are so many things that I look back on and think why did I ever let it continue. I was being manipulated and taken advantage of and it has given me lasting stress to the point of hives and insomnia.
Now I find out I may have to work with her on occasion and it is freaking me out because she still demanded control after the breakup and took money from me that she owed. I should have stood up for myself but I always wanted to be on better terms as I knew we'd still have to work together. I offered to talk about things to try and make work easier for us both but was met with 'never speak to me or contact me'
I had never done anything wrong and its like she can't take not winning and being horrible. Why can't I get her out of my head? I want to get over it and just walk in with my head held high but it's like I'm afraid now.
Tldr - My Ex was a toxic and manipulative demon in my life for 2 years and now I still can't get rid of her.