u/BringMeBackATshirt

The medical world revolves around suffering and how to deal with it. What they don't prepare you for is when you have a major psychological shift after overcoming great suffering whether it be a major depression, extreme trauma or when you clinically died and had an experience. Therapists and Psychiatrists don't seem to be trained on really spotting these changes and what often results from this is being misunderstood or even misdiagnosed just to be pushed towards even more medication. Through my own experience and through research I have noticed it can take many years, for me 6 years and is ever-evolving, even decades for people to come to an understanding of what actually happened in overcoming their suffering and what actually happened during their life's journey. I was on medication relating to depression for the last 6 years even though I had overcome major depression 6 years ago, showing the fallacy of the system.

Now I still experience the Negative Symptoms of the Schizophrenia Spectrum but now since the psychological shift, the shift is misunderstood as symptoms of either depression or negative symptoms. Simply because I no longer desire or need most of the things normal people do I am somehow seen as wrong. For instance I used to run ambient music on spotify 24/7 to fill the emptiness but then something changed where I just started to see the music as noise, I suddenly realized I didn't need that distraction anymore and I am fine without any music. People are required to be constantly entertained these days and feel like they need to be happy all the time but I don't see it that way. I don't do anything and I'm not bored. I no longer require a constant dopamine drip of video games or entertainment. I don't even look at food the same way anymore, it used to be one of my favorite things but now I no longer feel the draw towards it. I used to use sleep as an escape and it was comfortable, now I hate having to go to bed, I'd rather be awake. I really dislike youtube and I grow tired of the same stories on the TV.

With a big psychological shift often comes a change in how we perceive things, we no longer look at things the same and the system is not setup to relate with this. I'm assuming for people that are capable they can return to like a job or hobby but I cannot. I am stuck in a spot where I still can't function in society because of negative symptoms and lasting side effects of medication but I have this different way of looking at things in which I don't know what to do with either. It's completely messed up and there is no where to go to talk about this.

EDIT: I don't want anyone to feel worse or anything by me saying what I said, I'm just bringing up a real issue that is out there. I know many of you are going through depression and have yet to come out the other side. I just want to warn you of a possible problem that is waiting for you when you do make it.

Enlightenment and Ascension are bad words because they imply a kind of superiority or rising above everyone else when in-fact awakening does not make you better than anyone but rather only changes how you see things. This shift in perspective does not change this physical reality, you still have to navigate societies systems. You may go about seeing these systems differently but it doesn't change that you have to operate within them still. You are not above these systems in any way and these systems can still hurt you.

People try to make you think that because you have an awakening that somehow everything changes but it doesn't, it is only your perception that has changed. You still have a life to live regardless of that perception.