Im sorry that today I relapsed
Just couple moment ago, I gave in to the desire. I thought that, im really emberased to say this, edging was fine. I was wrong. I kept watching porn for hours. Then, I relapsed. This keep happening every month. I cant break the cycle. I always relapsed one per month. Although it seems better than my old cycle (years ago I did it almost everyday), it still feels wrong. It took alot of my productive time and energy. It usually start with unstable emotion that was triggered by something. Insteed of resolve it, I tried to ig ignored it. And, I rely on porn again, thinking that edging would be fine. Then, here I am back to relapsed. Ig, if anyone have some advice for this situation, It would be great tbh. I really want to not rely on porn again and again