Appointment Today.
Hello, this is my third and unfortunately last post in this subreddit.
Today my most handsome man, will be put to rest. He is 12 years old and he has lived a long life full of love.. but i had to make this decision for my safety and my roommates safety.. as he is very unpredictable. And it is not fair to him to live a life confined to a room and crate only to be allowed to roam on leash when i’m home… My vet also confirmed this is the best course of action given age, environment, and bite history.. Today I ask not for judgement or to be shamed right now i’ve already felt so much.. nor do I want to go in depth about the incidents that have lead us to this point..
I ask right now, for those who have made the decision, trainers who have seen it done, shelter workers who have had to do it more times then they can count. I ask for advice on the days that follow, i am currently in the numbness stage.. I have five hours until the appointment and we are going to all his favorite places and getting all the pup cups and treats he could ever dream of. And i periodically get hit with the most overwhelming grief (these past two days i have barely slept or ate and my eyes are so swollen and irritated) but today i have felt so numb.. maybe it will all change the second i get to that office.. thinking about it to hard gives me a pain like ive never felt before.
Please tell me how you deal with it all, this is undoubtedly the hardest decision i’ve ever had to make and it is weighing on me so so hard, i don’t know if i’ll ever be the same again after this..
thank you all, i have attached a picture of my handsome man, and his equally handsome lamby.