I don’t think I like my friend group anymore or at least I’m not going in the same path as them I think.
I love them like genuinely I do but it’s just a lot building up and I feel like I been lowkey shrinking myself and acting more childish just to match them so stuff don’t feel weird but it actually be making me just upset. I’m 17 one of the oldest in the group and I’m the only one with a job and a car(even the other 17-year-old) and every time we go out they expect me to pay for everything like every single time and when I say I don’t wanna do it anymore they get mad at me for it I even tried helping them too like sending hiring events from my job telling them when to apply and stuff and they be asking about it but never actually go or follow through.it’s frustrating because we all got the same resources and some of them honestly got better resources than me but they just don’t use them like wtf and then still be complaining about not having money or not getting what they want and it just irritates me fr.
we’re not even into the same stuff anymore when we first met I was really into anime heavy but now I’m kinda over it for now I feel like I watched everything I wanted to and I wanna watch other stuff but anytime I bring up something that’s not anime or a kdrama I just get shut down every time and it’s also just little stuff adding up like I got one friend(16) I love him like a brother but he be doing too much sometimes he don’t pay for nothing he loud he extra like over the top one time he dropped a cup of ice and then dramatically fell onto it and started giggling like it didn’t even touch his feet and stuff like that just be getting on my nerves now.
I got another friend same age as me who don’t got a job and relies on her parents for everything which I get at 17 but she always complaining about her mom not giving her enough money even though she don’t really do nothing all day and that irritates me tooand then I got another friend who actually got a lot like her room packed with figures posters headphones all that and it look cool fr but she always complaining about not getting more stuff and she don’t even pay for none of it and I think I’m a little jealous of that cause I been working since I was 15 and had to earn my own money while she don’t really do nothing
I guess that’s part of it too I am a little jealous that they don’t gotta work and don’t got that drive while I been doing it for years but at the same time I don’t like feeling used or like I’m expected to pay for everybody just cuz I do work it just feel like they don’t wanna grow up fr and I know we not adults yet I get that but I also don’t wanna act like I’m 12 forever I still wanna have fun but not like that all the time I really do love my friends but this been bothering me a lot and I needed to get it out has anybody else dealt with this