Hate my job but can't quit yet. Using the time to prepare my escape.
Every Sunday night the dread hits. Another week of pointless meetings. Another week of a boss who micromanages everything. Another week of watching the clock.
Can't just quit. Bills exist. Health insurance exists. Responsibilities exist.
Spent months just complaining about it. Venting to friends. Fantasizing about dramatic resignation. Doing nothing to actually change the situation.
Realized the complaining was making it worse. And the longer I stayed stuck the more stuck I became.
Decided to use the job I hate to fund and fuel my escape from it.
Started treating every spare moment as preparation time. Building skills they're not paying me for. Learning things that will get me somewhere better.
Started using BeFreed. It's a personalized audio learning app. Can learn during all the dead time my boring job has plenty of.
How I learn while hating my job:
Commute both ways. Building skills instead of building resentment.
Lunch breaks. Flashcard reviews. Small progress daily.
Slow afternoons. Earbuds in. Look like I'm on a call. Actually learning.
After work when I have energy. Deeper sessions.
What I'm building toward:
Different industry entirely. Learning the fundamentals now.
Interview skills. For when opportunities come.
Negotiation. Not accepting a bad offer again.
Side project knowledge. Maybe build my own thing eventually.
Financial runway. Learning about money so I can take bigger risks.
The flashcards keep me consistent. Even on days when work drains me.
The AI coach helps me plan. Asked how to transition into a new field. Got a roadmap.
What changed:
Dread is less intense. Every day I'm closer to leaving.
Feel less trapped. Taking action even if small.
Job performance is fine. Not checked out. Just building on the side.
Interview coming up next week. First real shot in months.
What I remind myself:
This job is funding my next chapter.
Resentment wastes energy. Preparation uses it.
Every day here is a day closer to leaving.
The skills I build are mine. They can't take those.
What's still hard:
Patience. Want out now.
Faking engagement. Hard to care about work that doesn't matter.
Uncertainty. No guarantee the escape plan works.
Better than sitting in misery doing nothing.
Anyone else building their exit while stuck somewhere? How are you doing it?