TW: loss.
Hi everyone,
I’m spiraling and hoping for some reassurance.
This is my third FET. My first was a fresh transfer that resulted in a missed miscarriage at 6w5d, second FET failed and this one seemed very positive so far. My first beta was 407, the second 4 days later was 1950. The first ultrasound is scheduled for May 13, at 6w4d.
I had some spotting a few days after the transfer for about a week, but then it stopped. However, this morning I experienced light bleeding. Enough to see some droplets in the toilet and a good bit of blood when wiping. It was more than I’ve seen with spotting, so I totally panicked. I called the clinic and left a message. They just got back to me stating that bleeding in the first trimester is normal, and I should just monitor in case it becomes heavy or if I pass large cloths. If it becomes worse then they will want to see me. Their response felt so dismissive.
This infertility journey is a cruel one. It has been so difficult to connect with this pregnancy after losing my first. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop and this morning it felt like it did. 💔😭 rationally I know this is not necessarily the end, but my heart is shattered.