(27f) Had therapy sessions in 2016-2017 but don't remember them + headache incident.
Welp I made a new acc cuz my other reddit is link to my bussiness.
You see, I have just found out recently I have offical medical records showing that there was therapy sessions between late 2015-2017
A total of 32 sessions... but here is the kicker I do not remember NONE of them.
Now going to explain this: I had requested my medicals records recently for other things I suspected in my life (Thinking I might've been possibly innersex or sex changed) because I was experiencing unnerving body horror to the point where I felt like I had been cut on at some point in my early childhood and other things that I would want to save for another subreddit that can relate to these issues.
Something had to happen when I was younger considering most of my child hood from 2005-2013 was in a sort of dream state. I can decipher reality but it felt like I didn't get out of it until I was basically 11-12yrs of age.
I thought I was gonna possibly have some revealed clues on to that but now that I seen these therapy sessions, It kind of shifted my focus as you see lol.
Now anyways between those therapy appointments, I had an extreme headache that year, like a month after a session. It was the worse headache in my entire life that I've never experience anything like that before. It was like getting my skull constantly crush. It only gone away after going to the emergency room and after that I've never experience a headache like that again.
Then I guess the psychotherapy sessions continued.
I brought this part up because I always wonder why that happen and now I believe it correlates to these incidents.
I asked my parents about it but my dad is like "I don't remember that." and my mom is like "You didn't go to no therapy appointments" despite literally having 30 sessions which was mostly all 1 hour long and a couple 30 minutes.
It's like... now I am left with more questions than answers since I didn't even see anything else suspicious about my medical records.
I'm just like... Where do I begin? I know nobody can give medical advice to me but I feel a little lost.
The medical records I got didn't really gave me anything (I requested by the state) and I am not particularly saavy with this stuff.
Edit: I feel like the other things I stated on here honestly needs it's own post, but I am just confused with the whole forgetting 32 sessions part and why that would occured.
Edit 2: I decided to go to the mental institution website and request them for potential medical records. In the mean time I am still confused on what else to do because It makes me wonder what I would even say during those sessions and not remember them..
Like I always knew that I had some memory gaps but not to this extent :/
Edit 3: So people is more aware, I edit the post to be clear these are official medical records I ordered from the state dating back from 2007-2022. These are real institutions from my state and most run by the state's government so there is no 3rd party involved as far as scammers.
It only tells me that they had occured, and as I stated in the post, I contacted the institution if they can give me further information if possible. But as of this moment I reached a dead end.
So this isn't some speculation... These indeed had occured I just don't remember why.
I would had no other person to take me to these appointments other than my parents, which is why it's strange they would be dishonest about it. I was homeschooled until mid 2017 so I had no other contacts but them.