How do I get over my fear of being perceived?
I’m 20 years old and I feel like I’ve done nothing with my life since becoming an adult two years ago. I’m scared of being judged for the way I look or act, so I mostly stay at home and avoid people. Because of that, I don’t have a job or any friends, and it’s getting harder and harder to ignore.
Everyone around my age seems to be moving forward with their lives while I’m stuck doing nothing, just sitting at home feeling pathetic. I keep telling myself I’m going to change and get a job, but every time I say it, I end up doing nothing and disappointing myself again.
I can’t stop thinking about people seeing me as slow, stupid, or incapable, and it’s messing with my head badly. I want to get out of this mindset, become independent, and make up for the time I’ve wasted, but honestly I don’t even know if I’m capable of changing anymore.