u/Bright_Athlete959

18 year old I’m not really a anxious person and I know I’m young but even looking about 2 year ago to when I was 16 just causes immense anxiety towards the fact I can never go back and yearning to be a teenager again with no responsibilities and just be super young and happy again. I also lost my childhood dog last year and that plays a roll. The realizing of the fact I will never ever be able to just sit on the couch with her again. I’m already grieving the future of the day when family members pass knowing then ill feel that grief of never being to just sit with them on this earth again happy and present and it will all be gone in a distant memory. I try not to think all of this too much but when I do I feel so trapped and defeated I just imagine myself trying so hard to run back to a time that does not and cannot exist anymore and that’s what makes it all so scary. I can try to trick myself it still exits but it doesn’t it’s all moved on life has and everyone has and there’s nothing I can do to change that. I know I should focus on the now and be present in this moment before it slips away from me rather then focusing on the past or future but inevitably I understand I’ll still in the future feel this grief and nostalgia for this very moment.