Hi all. I’ve been an EMT for about three years and am in paramedic school. I overall love the field but I’ve made some bad choices outside of work that has affected my personal life.
About a year ago, I made the choice to follow my now-ex-girlfriend to a new city, away from a major city in California where I had my roots, a good job in a 911 system where I felt I was thriving, and pretty high pay. Now I’m working IFT again, at a company that doesn’t treat its employees especially well. Im growing to resent my circumstances and myself for putting myself in this position. I’ve tried multiple times to go back to my previous agency, but there hasn’t been a single opening. I interviewed at another 911 provider in this city and was denied. I’m still waiting to hear back from the big FD in this area but my chances are pretty low.
I feel resentful and bitter towards this profession and my life as a whole. I’m in a new city with very few friends or connections and all I want is to head back to where I felt most at home. Has anyone gone through something similar? How do you learn to be more appreciative of your day-to-day? How can I learn to be more patient, and wait for opportunities elsewhere?