To say the least i started that job super happy and excited about being there. I had alot of chamges to my life and was deepyly into the things i was interested in as it was part of a personality chage, becoming sober for several years and gave me health like id never had before.
But i worked at a place where gossip was most peoples lives and between what was said behind my back and actually getting bullied in my face and hr contributing to how bad things were and refusing to help i lost that part of me i needed so bad. Lost my health. Lost my smile. Truly lost myself.
I got labs done recently after a year + away from that workplace and the labs reflect that while im in normal.function my body isnt handling stress well. Im bassicly always in fight or flight since working there.
It is distressing knowing that what was a normal week for them became lasting physical harm to my health.
Something i cared so much about before it got beat out of me