tw weight and calories!!!!!!
hi so for context i’m 16 5’3 and >!97!<lbs. in october i was about >!118!<but then decided to lose weight. i started with a deficit of >!1200c!<but that sort of started a downward spiral into eating less than >!900!<most days and exercising a lot + compensating if ykwim. my last period was in january and the past couple weeks i’ve been getting more worried about its absence. ive been trying to eat more and prioritize fats but the problem is whenever i eat over >!1200!<i just feel so guilty and i am terrified of weight gain. i am also a very active athlete so stopping activity is not really an option. my parents/friends have noticed my weight loss but no one knows about my disordered eating or missing period. i just dont exactly know where/how to start on my own so any and all advice is appreciated (like what i should prioritize etc etc)