Irrational Retroactive Jealousy
I have been experiencing intense RJ which has caused me to feel physically nauseous, withdraw from studies, stop hobbies, miss important conferences. My GF and I have identical body counts (both below 5). She has had a past serious relationship and a ONS. I repeatedly see her ONS which is predominantly triggering this I feel however it has constantly playing in my head. Her ex bf does not bother me, the ONS does.
I understand it is hypocritical to care, I don’t think I would if it was two serious boyfriends. The fact she slept with this man after barely knowing him is what makes my stomach turn. She has made joking comments of when we started dating, which with this context in my mind bothers me further. She paid little interest to me when we started talking, it took about a week or so of talking on dating apps/texting before she showed any sign of interest. Additionally, she had continued to follow this man on social media for 5 months into seeing each other - I had explicitly unfollowed past partners a month or so in. I don’t know what to do, it is making me question if I am fit for a relationship.