25M Lhr- Trying to make new friends fr
This is my first reddit post ever, Ive always been the quietest person in the room, I feel like people dont understand me so I never really bother them, I talk when talked to and mostly keep to myself. All the friends I had are either abroad or too busy in their own lives. I work alongside my cousins in my another cousins company and have been working for the past 3 years now. I just finished uni and now work here full time. Tbh im fed up of living this dry life. I hangout with my cousin’s friends because it was easy as I didnt have to put in any effort. I grew up in UAE and came to Pak for further studying. I had planned to go back but ive been stuck here for 8 years now. My cousin grew up here and his friends are, lets just say, narrow minded people. I dont want to be rude but most of his friends are pendu and Ive grown up in a completely different environment. Im stuck with them and I just want to get out this. I feel trapped when im with them and just nod along since i dont have any other friends. They have a very toxic atmosphere amongst them, they make demeaning jokes about each other, say hurtful things and tbh ive never done anything of that sort and havent been brought up to do so. All they want to do is hurt the other person with words as much as they can and they have a heirarchy amongst them and the at the top is my cousin who likes to control people. I was stupid enough to realize this late but now I understand everything and tackle it accordingly.
I know its a long post but you can say i am fed up and just in need of some new fresh friends. I never ever share personal things with anyone and me writing this post is like a huge ass step. wish me luck haha