u/BoardOk608

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im not sure if this is even the right community to be posting this but i think im doing drugs wrong. i have done ketamine, coke, crystal meth shrooms and more recently mdma and lsd and i never felt substantially different. when i drink alcohol i need atleast double the amount of demons that my friends do, partially im sure it’s because im on the fat side but even then my drunk self is just more relaxed and slightly more social than what im usually like. no one is ever able to tell that im drunk from the ways i act whereas its quite clear when my friends are even just tipsy. i used to smoke alot more weed than i do now but at some point i overdid it and got so high that i had multiple panic attacks, projectile vomited a bunch and literally felt woozy for 20+ hours. so then i stopped. quite regularly i used to do bumps of ketamine with a friend of mine but aside from the bitter taste right after i had no reason to do it other than that she was spending the money and i wasn’t lol. so when we stopped talking i stopped using that. when going to clubs i use coke but also exclusively from other people since im lowkey a cheapskate and dont want to spend that money. all i noticed is nausea after and im very sure that had to do with the copious amounts of alcohol i was drinking. i also definitely didn’t have a hard time falling asleep after using. when i did shrooms it was the same although i took double the recommended dose. last weekend i finally bought molly andl lsd of my own because i was curious to finally try. i did the mdma at party with a friend, and had been following all steps that are recommended for that kind of trip but we both ended up not noticing any effects. the two days ago i took a tab of acid and after 3 hours i napped for a little bit, when i woke up i had a bit of koleidescope vision but only for a split second, this could have easily been the placebo effect also. for the ten hours after consuming i truly felt indifferent. the day after i was throwing up stomach acid for god knows what reason. i used/ bought everything from completely different people so the quality shouldn’t be a problem. i hate that im wasting my money and i don’t know what’s wrong with me because how does one even do drugs wrong. i also have bpd and depression, as well as general anxiety. i take bupropion, used to take fluoxetine up until a few weeks ago. i also use quetiapine to get a thorough rest (even if sober). if anyone has any idea what the issue could be please let me know and thank you for reading all this if you really did make it to the end.

hello everyone, my sister 34F and i 17F have quite an age gap, but i want to help her out in anyway possible as she is expecting her first baby in a few weeks, she seems understandably lost and im wondering if theres any way i can support or encourage her, or maybe even get her to be less stressed out. i understand this is a huge milestone in her life but im not quite sure if i should give her space or check up on her and offer help. we also have a 2h flight distance between us, so its not realistic that ill be able to help out regularly, but i do plan on seeing her when the baby is about 6 weeks. anyways i would appreciate any tips or suggestions on how i can be there for her. thanks!