u/BlueishGreenBroccoli

i’m losing my best friend tomorrow. i never thought id write this so soon

i’ve loved my boy more than anything for the past 18 years of my life. he’s my first pet, one i got at 9 years old, i named him after the boy i had a crush on in elementary school. and that name just stuck no matter what.

my thomas, my tommy boy, my squammy wammy, my handsome man, i will forever miss you. life is going to be so empty from now on. no longer looking forward to coming home to work to have you meow at me to
lay down because you want cuddles.
how you would put your paw on me when you wanted scratches. or how you would jump in front of my computer screen when i spent too much time on the computer.
you were the best cat anyone could ask for.

i wish my love could let you live longer, for forever. im not ready to let you go.

as the title states, my boy is 18.

he was diagnosed with Chronic Kidney Disease Stage 3 of 4. We took him to the vet in October and the vet said once he’s no longer eating it’s the end. There’s nothing the vet can do due to his age.

He’s slowly been eating less and less these past few months. He still drinks and uses the bathroom. and whatnot.

but my question is:

How do i know when it’s time?

Will something click in my heart? Will i just know when it’s time?

He’s been my baby for 18 years and i never want to let him go.