Vent/Struggle
I miss her and I don’t know what to do. My ex of a year and a few months recently broke up with me being the one being broken up with.
We originally met through my job and got together and started dating and made it through quite a few struggles that has happened and I’ve been supportive of her and gave her the space needed to heal and find who she is. When the breakup phone call happened she gave the standard “you did nothing wrong” and “I can’t give you what you want” and “you deserve someone who can love you the way you deserve” statements and one of them alluding to someone else being “potentially” in the picture (which was a first time for me hearing this). All while saying she loves me and cares for me.
I’ll be honest I know im not perfect and have my issues to deal with. I struggle with abandonment trauma stemming from my childhood and I recognize that it affects my relationships and try to not let that get in my head. In this case it led me to spiral and text multiple times after the call and the next day wanting answers and to talk things over when she felt comfortable to do so. But it’s been four days since I last heard from her and the pain in my chest knowing that I’ve just been thrown away like I didn’t mean anything is the worst heart break I’ve ever had. I love her with everything that I am and it’s eating away at me because I want nothing more than to see her and help her through her struggles while being her partner. Her person that she can rely on and that’s there through it all.