selfie sunday (rant)
been living with schizophrenia for almost 3 years and it has absolutely destroyed many aspects of my life. i feel like im degrading as a person. any pleasure is short lived, my friendships have grown distant, and i spend less and less time working and more time rotting. like i cant do anything anymore. i want to hike and camp and fish and play video games, but i literally can not. i could live with the hallucinations, but the paranoia and my negative symptoms just take control of me. i hate it. the medicine helps but not for long. and yet, there are people who have it much worse than me. i am so incredibly lucky in that sense. im lucky to still have a job, and a girlfriend. i hope i learn to cope better with this illness. thank you to this community for existing.