I am currently going through a couple really difficult transits. Pluto is exactly opposite my Leo Sun, and Saturn is exactly conjunct my Aries moon.
Since February, its been one thing after another. One mistake, then another, then a failure, then another slip up. I just keep making mistakes. Saying the wrong things to the wrong people. Speaking when I shouldnt. Giving up on opportunities that would help me grow. The regret of not trying.
With every mistake I make, the guilt is so much. And every mistake is just worse and worse it feels like. Every step I take is a trap.
I know i am meant to be growing through these times, but how do I not hate my self for the mistakes I've made. I broken trust, given up on commitments, declined a job with more responsibility - just to vaguely name a few.
I know I do not want to be this person anymore. However i JUST KEEP MESSING UP. I know who i want to be, I guess we dont change unless the consequences of our actions are shake us.
Has anyone felt better once these transits were over? What are your experiences.