Hello everyone it's me, John sweeper or great brother xeno,if don't remember me or your new here then its fine and if you do thank you,im sorry I haven't been active in here or the discord for almost a month now and it really hurts to see it,every time I get a notification from the the server it fills me with guilt that slowly eats away from the inside
my character xeno...i have so much plans for him,i only completed two acts for story,i haven't finished his id,i had planned a distortion for him in his later acts,i had idea for his rendering,i had plans to draw him,Im making a doc that overhaul and addon to the entire sweeper race to expand their lore and worldbuilding!
.and yet i didn't do it,i have didn't do it or finished it,it was either me being busy with school or procrastination...
you see...a couple months ago during the start of the iran war for the straight,during the time missle where attack the us base in kuwait and during the time the sirens would blair all night every day,i found this server when i was doom scrolling through reddit and decided to join as a sweeper for the lols,but as continued till the point i somehow got great brother for the website,i fell in love with the community despite my anxiety and fear of being called out,this community helped me forget about the siren and the war as i stayed up creating and completing vengeance quest as well as making lore drop and it got better when the discord server was made,it was the best interaction had with community...and yet i slowly lost interest
I don't want to lose interest i want to continue role playing...but the more i procrastinate the more stopped my self from chatting the more i see everyone continued the rp as the lore grows more and more without me...i was paralyzed,all i did turn to escapism imagining my self doing all the things i wish i could do as i ignored the chats of everyone who moved on...sometime i would vent in the "sweepers hideaway" where i posted the acts but would never chat i somewhere else...
im afraid
i don't want to be forgotten