u/Binnieish

I won’t be sugarcoating anything- it was hard. Hard to see everyone around me live their live, start a new chapter of their lives after highschool while I was frozen at one place. Though I tried, couldve done better but well…wtv

I was the first to ever take a drop for neet so I had zero idea what I was doing, no one to guide me. I started off a bit too late- July with online coaching (ig one of my biggest mistake) in the start I was constantly told by teachers “ho jayega time hai” and I was understanding things very well, it was going smooth, but the thing is- it shouldn’t. I was relaxed when I should’ve been doing mcqs every day.

I would study a chapter, do some questions and think I’m done with it, this continued till the very last moment- jan, when I realized I don’t rmber anything that I had done before properly, just a vague memory of it all.

Aside from studying what I came across was another issue- my personality. I was a very social person, I’d talk to literally anyone but little by little i lost myself, I started avoiding people, I’d think “if they ask kya kar rahi ho then what will I say? Drop? Haha nah”. I watched myself distance away from few of my friends as well. (Aside from this I’ve a detached personality, so this came naturally)

December used to be my fav month- holiday vibes, cold weather and overall Christmas vibes but 2025 December I faced the worst month of my entire life, literally. I would cry almost every night, I would get into petty arguments with my mother or brother and cry about it, everything felt so overwhelming that at one point I wished I wasn’t alive (I’m glad I am though lol)

January I kinda realized I was cooked, i was still recovering from whatever that December did to me, and by then came Feb, time was flowing away from my hands, I could just sit and watch. I started revising, doing pyqs and made a syllabus chart, there were very less days and way too many chapters. So I decided to ditch physics, shouldn’t have.

My bio was amazing and so was chem aside from a few concepts, but physics, I was at zero. So i ignored it. Mid April I started giving mocks- should’ve started earlier. I avoided mocks like hell. Id say “ki syllabus pura ho jaye phir start karungi”, that was a massive mistake. I scored almost 470-380 ka range (only gave like 4 proper mocks) ik it isn’t perfect but I was trying.

Exam day, I fumbled. I took too much time in bio that I had barely any left for chem and phy, I had to squeeze chem in the last 40 ish mins. Idk where all the time went?? It was all a blur.

Conclusion: I just wanted to tell my experience so you guys can take a lesson from it. I wasn’t perfect and couldn’t achieve what I was capable of because of very minute mistakes, This was my first and final drop. Please take a drop with proper knowledge and guidance, and know this isn’t the end, NEET doesn’t define your life nor your worth. Goodluck.

Edit: guys just want to add that my family has been my back since day one, they didn’t force me into anything, took me on outing every weekend so that I can take a break. Even after the exam didn’t go well my father and mother both told me to do what my heart says, doctor or not they will support me, and I’m grateful for that.

Meri life ka motto