hey i'm new here & in reddit in general, just wanted to vent my frustrations with myself, and sorry for being pathetic,
i'm 18 years old & i grew up on the internet, i realized couple years ago about how harmful the internet and especially social media can be, i never used social media except youtube & reddit without accounts, & i use ublock origin with filterlist for distraction free youtube but i keep DISABLING youtube filterlist & binge watch channels & recommended vids & sometimes i mass download interesting videos to watch later when i'm offline, even when i tell myself to spend time productively & not go to youtube except for tutorials, i just distract myself with shows, movies, anime, comics, manga or ruminating a lot
i don't have friends except for one & i live in a small & very religious town in a desert where people are unfriendly and where there's NOTHING to do, going outside is extremely unpleasant because it's extremely hot here, NOTHING but roads, no parks, rivers, social places or events, i swear to god nothing ever happens in this backwater town that i'm gonna leave ASAP,
so it's kinda hard for me to cope & find like minded people who also speak english & have a social life so i just rot & degenerate away,
any recommendations please? maybe vrchat...