I've been thinking about this for a while now but, I cannot bring myself to care about anyone in my life. I dont care about their achievements or failures. I dont care if they got a good grade or bad grade (I'm in college), got into a relationship or broke up, if they made a new friend or lost one, basically anything.
Even my family for that matter, I would say the only person I care about is my mother since I have been quiet clingy to her since birth (Im a 19 F btw). I do not have a good relationship with my father and do not have a close bond with my sister (22 F). She moved out for college 4 years ago and we have only called a handful of times.
I dont care about anyone not because I hate them I truly love my family and friends with all my heart and love spending time with them but I cant seem to feel for them. I lack empathy and do not know how to comfort them in times of need. I also lack an emotional bond. I would not be upset if my 4 year long friendship with my bestfriend or any my other friendships ended.
I have also not had a proper boyfriend because of this. My past talking stages/ situationships have never progressed due to me not being able to match their emotional needs, and honestly I didn't really feel bad when it failed because....well things happen.
I am not struggling mentally, I function well, workout, eat healthy, have goals and ambitions, do my assignments and am happy and content with my life so far.
I am not sure what to do because on one hand, I am thinking I'm better off this way because this may lower chances of being me manipulated, emotionally dependent or getting dragged into something I may not want to be part off. On the other hand, I feel this might affect my relationships now and any potential partners in the future.
Edit: I forgot to mention this but I hide this part of me from everyone because I dont want them thinking that I dont care about them. I celebrate their wins and always listen to their problems. I pretend to feel sorry and happy for them. But, this doesnt mean I wont be there for them, I will but its just hard to feel.