Idk I'm just scared
Okay so I’m fully prepared for my Islamic Studies exam tomorrow but I am still panicking. I’m feeling physically unwell and nauseous even though this is a subject I’m confident in. Last year I only studied after Isha the night before and got 48/50 but the trauma from Tuesday’s Math paper is making it impossible to feel okay.
As I told you all Math went awfully. I am convinced I will fail I’m planning to pray Tahajjud and make Dua for the first time but I’m scared I keep wondering if it will actually work or if I’ll pray for months and still fail. Have any of you had your Duas answered in a situation like this?
I’m stuck in the worst case scenario because we are in the Middle East our exams were delayed for so long without updates that most of us stopped studying thinking they’d be canceled. Then the datesheet came out of nowhere with only one day off between papers. I originally wanted to improve all my marks from last year but with this schedule it’s impossible to retake everything.
My only hope now is the Grade 9 Math retake If I can score over 50 out of 75 I can pass both years and never have to look at Math again. But I am terrified. Whenever I see a Math paper my brain completely shuts down I lose all energy I forget basic addition and my hands literally stop working. That’s exactly what happened on Tuesday I forgot everything and just wanted to cry and leave
I have this one last chance with the Grade 9 paper but I’m so scared I’ll mess it up again and fail if I don't get the marks I need I won't be able to go on...I'm gonna cry bruh I hate everyone I hate myself I hate maths!!! And improvement isn't an option for me at all,either I pass or I d*e and I'm fr...