So I was at a music festival with some people.
I had other stuff before the shroom but after I took the shrooms everything is a blur. I have a blackout window for like 2-3 hours. What I do recall is some crazy intense trip. Crazy part of that it felt like a loop of a bad trip I had previously, years ago.
Anyways I just remember very intense bad trip and then I snapped back into reality but I was outside of the festival. I walked back to the entrance but they wouldn’t let me back in due to no reentry policy.
So I texted my group and moments go by and I finally met up with them.
We walked back to the car and felt something was off with the group. Especially this one girl that I was with in the group. But they didn’t say anything to me and just kind of brushed it off.
We went back to the house and had an after and everyone seemed to be having a good time.
Day after, I said my goodbyes and went home.
The next day (so 2 days after the festival) I reached out to the girls and one of them told me that I’ve really hurt the other girl. She mentioned that it was beyond repair and wanted to end the friendship.
Has anyone blackout and have zero recollection of hurting someone?
This making me very sad cause I really don’t think I am that kind of person. I ask them what I have done to hurt one of them but they did not tell me and left me on read. It really suck not knowing what happened and not being able to know what you have done to hurt someone. I really wanted to know what happened so I can make sure to never do it again.
At this point all I can think to better myself is to stop doing shrooms.
Someone else got similar experience that can give pointers or suggestions?