My father got pissed when he got to know that his friends son is getting 640 in first drop and I'm getting 332 in my second drop .
Bhai papa ne alcohol drink kar rakhi thi and unko kisi uncle ka phone aya and un uncle ke bete ke 640 are first drop mein and mere bhai 332 banre 2nd drop ke bad bhi .
And Bhai papa ka jo dimag khiska , unhone jake mere bhai ko bhi 1 ghanta sunaya and mujhe indirectly nalayak kaha.
And honestly mene acche se prepare hi ni kiya , I'm literally burned out. 11th se ek aise test ki teyari karri hun jiske bare mein kuch pata hi nhin tha .
Papa ne 11th mein helix chandigarh bhej diya , bina koi guidance diye, mujhe literally pata tak nhin tha ki aiims kya hota hai until kisi friend ne mujhe bataya and all .
I literally had zero guidance , sivaye is line ke , ki bete padho padhte jao , like excuse me koi batayega kya ki padhna kya hai .
Mein below average bandi, muh utha ke aise hi coaching bhej diya , i literally got depressed due to all the toppers around me bro , i felt like failure , sare 90% vale bhare padhe hue hain bhai .
Uper se introvert , kisi bande ko coaching jana hai na to ek baat yad rakhna teacher se baat karne seekh lo meri tarah namune mat banke reh Jana . I was shit scared of teachers , to kabhi unse baat hi ni ki , so zero chances the ki teacher se bhi guidance mile .
Uper se guilt maa baap ke paise kharch karwane ka. Aint gonna lie , bhai 12th ke ending tak i was suicidal , to the point i got panic attack or idk wtf was that , I was crying so badly ki i couldnt breathe and all and u know what my parents did , they blamed each other for this and started fighting . Like seriously bro.
Firr my first mistake was to take 2 drops , but honestly mujhe drop lena ni tha ,but kuch aur kar bhi ni sakti thi , kyunki firr papa vahi , nalayak aur pata ni kya kya sunate . Infact jab mene second drop lene se pehle jab papa ko kaha ki mein kuch aur kar lungi , papa usme bhi gussa ho gaye and raat ko peeke mumma ko mere bare mein kaffi bura bhala kaha , ki agar mein unki baat ni manungi than meri zindagi kharab jayegi and all .
And jab mein is saal ka neet ka paper dekar ayi , so papa was like mene to force ni kiya tha drop lene ke liye , like huh , galiyan ap nikal re the ki mein .
Now the thing is mujhe is saal mere quota mein private mil jayega 60-70 lakhs mein , but I'm doubting ki mein lun ki nhin , kyunki firr papa baad mein bolenge ki mene tujhpe ladki hoke itne paise kharch kiye and all , but iska decision bhi papa lenge so , idk mein kya hi karungi apni life mein .