I’m not sure what’s wrong with me and I need some advice….
I’ve been struggling with doing basic things like cooking, getting out of bed in the morning, showering, skincare, texting people back, etc. Things that appear to be so easy for other people have just been so hard lately. I work in retail 5 days a week from 2pm-10pm. It’s draining being around so many people all of the time. When I get home at night, I’m too exhausted to fix anything of substance to eat or eat at all. I wake up and it’s like the nightmare starts over again. I struggle to get out of bed and do things like cooking breakfast, make my bed, take my meds. I feel like a failure in my own life. Every day feels so hard. I can’t be consistent with anything. Even things I enjoyed doing like putting on makeup each morning, I don’t do anymore. I feel so detached from myself. I’m not sure what to do. I have been on an antidepressant for 8 years now. I’ve recently tried going up but it made me feel worse so I went back to my original dose. I don’t want to switch to an entirely different antidepressant. My psychiatrist offered to add something to pair with my current medication. It would be an antipsychotic, but the side effects she listed worry me. I am currently looking for a new therapist, but medication wise, I just feel like there aren’t many options right now and I’m tired of feeling like this poorly everyday. Does anyone else struggle with these things or feel this way? I’d love some advice.