u/Big-Experience-8260

I have the script in hand and now have to do the family talk. Plus I had my first weird uncomfortable interaction.

It's been an up and down battle in my head these last couple of weeks. Everything seems to be going at light speed.

I was waiting to pick up my estrogen injections at the pharmacy when they told me they needed to consult with me first.

Im sitting there in a crowded area when they decided to ask me about the meds and if ive ever used it. I was like ya im an EMT and medical assistant and the pharmacist was just like looking at me so i stared back and was like "something wrong" and she realized what she was doing by violating HIPAA and being inconsiderate and quickly handed me my meds. Pissed me off because I just wanted to get in there and then leave

Also finally admitting that over the decades I've been hiding the dysphoria has been an eye opener but it has caused a lot of internal commotion.

I was going to take my injection tomorrow to celebrate the new me on Mother's day ironically. Since my daughter asked me if I wanted to be called mom or grandma lol. I was like well hell I never thought of that.

The hard part now is the talk with my long time gf and her adult children since we live in a multi-generational household. Im sure it won't go over well. But im hopeful.

How did you all handle coming out to a spouse or loved one? This is where I am struggling now.

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u/Big-Experience-8260 — 6 days ago

So today after work I have my consult for feminizing HRT. I go from super excited and thinking this is right to the stoic veteran father saying its wrong.

I spoke to my therapist who said I was ready but that didnt seem to help.

I struggle because I am most afraid not of the effects of hrt but of the unknown results.

Also I am terrified of what my spouse will say. My biological daughter gave me a green light which made me feel great. But my spouse and my stepchildren will likely not accept it.

So I am preparing the worst case sce ario in my head before I even start hrt.

Is this normal? Did the therapist just agree I was gender dysphoric.. is this a phase (lasting 40 years on and off).

I look at girlie clothes and wear some underwear my scrubs and it feels right.

Im just scared

I'm 49 that's part of my fear too that I won't pass

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u/Big-Experience-8260 — 7 days ago