The day it all started, she was my crush from the 3rd grade of primary right from the first day she joined school. She sat with me that very day.
Years passed and we studied till 5th standard in co nature before segregating into all boys and girls sections in the same school.
I never had the chance to see her again nor talk to her, for the coming years but always had her imaginary picture along with me throughout. Loved her to the core.
Then it was the announcement of the 9th board exams and to see her i downloaded the whole gazette of the result(which effectively is result book for whole city's schools and students) and did a linear search for each person of the same name and finally got her roll no just to check her result online for the sake of seeing her since her photo would be visible on the online result.
This practice followed for the coming years until the inter was passed and one fine day i saw a Facebook id of similar name and messaged her to check her and found out it was her and yes it was 22nd of dec 1.07am
Finally i talked to her and expressed my feelings and exchanged contacts and shifted to WhatsApp.
She was into medicine(MBBS) and i was into engineering. She kinda liked me back or fell for my core emotions and it all started to get perfect. I used to stay awake all night when she had to prepare her proffs, i would be there just to make her feel i am present there although i had whatever chores all day
Watched series online by which i could actually understand her medical term, inshort studied to sync
Then we met too, the gifts or even the wrappers of the gifts are still with me till date, i see her every time i see those things
The piece of paper she wrote to me 'i love you' and signed it, is the medal i have earned for life.
There were days i would just wait for her to appear and she would forget to message and I won't sleep the whole night, and there were days when she messaged me and my automatic mind alarm rang and i would wake up without any sound or notification or ring. I cherished every moment with her, strived for it and made myself up. I would pray tahajud, would offer nawafil and prayers whenever she was up against any exams. I loved her in a way that no one could ever do or imagine and i am proud of it
Never ever even touched her for a second not even an inch. She was/is such a gem i cant get over
Then it all came to the rishta cycle and her mother and sister made her mind up that doctors are compatible and bound to be with doctors and engineers are not the perfect matches (since her elder two sisters were doctors too and married accordingly)
She left me all stranded i am lost till date, maybe wont ever get over her
I still vouch for her, she is a gem, no doubt about it and i can't bear anything against her but i wish she had only held it a bit tighter.
I said that i would do anything even if i have to sit at the feet of her mother but the moment never arrived
Her mother never gave me a chance despite the fact i became self independent and a business man at the young age of 25, also assured i would leave everything behind for her further studies if given a chance
With the help of almighty i do earn in millions but my beard is greying out at this young age and something is eating me up so fast
It's been years that we are not in contact again but i still hope and believe she will come back to me someday
Since i have got drained and dried for emotions and love for life, and i have never shed a single tear nor discussed anything with anyone about the whole story
The only thing i fear is would i be able to welcome her then?
Kaavish provided a thread to my story
'tery pyar ma dil har k, mne kya paya kya gwaya''
I could write a million more words but I can't.