u/BidOk6858

Working a 4th step again- 13 years sober. Gossip- The feeling is toxic. When I am talking about someone and the person starts talking about them- it’s such a rush in my head. The judgement is addictive when other people join in. I want to put that other person down because it makes me feel better about myself. I often forget that I might have done the exact same thing I am talking about. I am a hypocrite. I also talk about what I would have done in situations and how much better I would have done in that same scenario. I recognize the judgement I am passing on that is possibly spiritual sick as I am. The fear is the negative spotlight is on my all the time and if I get a chance to pass it off to someone else, I am going to take that opportunity. Instead I should not say anything and I should be praying for them. It usually is a resentment, but not all the time. This program and life sober works alot better when I keep my mouth shut!