u/Best_Monk

Hey so I started using subliminals a few years back, I know u should always love yourself and all that thing but i was acc ugly like i was just looking at past photos and OMGGG idk how i went out like that.
Anyway back the i was in grade 8 going onto grade 9 and my middle school experience was horrible like absolute bullshitttt. For instance, there was a halloween party once and this girl came up to me and asked what r u wearing (grade 6 btw) and I was like I’m wearing a dress (i was gonna be a corpse bride) and this guy sitting next to her told me ID NEVER WANNA SEE U IN A DRESS, or for other instances id go to sit at the lunch table with my “friends” and there would be a lot of empty space but they’ll tell me i don’t think u fit here and id have to go and sit all alone. Other than the disgusted looks ppl gave me in general, whenever i ate or if i said anything about guys cuz u know i wasn’t allowed to like anyone. now listen i wasn’t that hideous but the bullying amplified so much i just couldn’t handle it. also other times when a person had this pool party at their house, and invited the whole class to it and i was just sitting in the corner while everybody was talking about it in class, and the teacher came up to me and was like y aren’t u sitting with the others and i just stayed silent and then one of the girls was like she wouldn’t fit the party’s aesthetic and a guy said that he would never want to see me in a swimsuit and no one ever did anything about all that bullying like everrrr.
My breaking point was when i was crushing on this guy (I never talked to him) i’d just look at him in skl kinda like a hallway crush, and when i told my “best friend” at the time she just started laughing and saying didn’t u see his ex gf he would never even look at smn like u (ik he was hot and i wasn’t planning on approaching him bc i wasn’t that confident anyway but hearing those snarky comments made me lose it like i just started hating myself and the way i look sm i wouldn’t go out of the house apart from skl and i would try to sh and ⭐️ve myself i literally tried everything.
In grade 10 i found out abt subs and i was likeet me give it a try it was summer and id just listen and manifest religion, and it gave me like the biggest glow up, when i went back to skl that year the look on my classmates faces was priceless they’d just side eye me and be like omgg what did u do over the summer, (im no vs model but i really had a huge glow up) i even stated hearing some guys saying im pretty in the hallway and i don’t normally care about male attention but HELL THAT FELT SO GOOD. My girlfriends stopped hanging out with me bc i “changed” no longer uglier than them so they can just humiliate me, in fact guys started approaching me and not even looking at them (i know this might be toxic but let me have my money after 6 years of helllll) anyway we were at a cafe once and that guy from skl came up to our table and all my friends instantly started looking at him and trying to make small talk bc he’s acc hot, but he came up to me and asked for my snap and i was so happyyyyyy partly bc i’ve had a crush on him and mostly bc i got to see that fucking jealous look on all of the girls faces after i’ve been through absolute hell.
So ya we r dating, we’ve been together 4 years and i have a new friend and both my friend and bf r teh absolute most sweetest and thoughtful ppl ever. I still struggle a bit with talking to ppl and public speaking as i still feel like im less than everyone sometimes but this sub thing was the best thing that ever happened to meeee. I also used subs to get other things that I wanted but the main thing for me was change my looks.
ANYWAY LIFE ROCKS KEEP MANIFESTING AND BELIEVING U R ALL SO PRETTYYYY