I’m fcked up
I would like to share my personal experience with gambling. I am in my 30s, employed, and striving to build a secure future. However, I have developed a serious addiction to gambling, particularly online baccarat. What began as a way to pass the time gradually turned into a destructive habit.
Over the past year, I have lost approximately 200k—essentially all of my savings. At times, especially when drinking, I would gamble recklessly, losing as much as 20k in a single night. The saying “the house always wins” has proven painfully true in my case.
Because of this, my dreams of owning a car, a motorcycle, or even simply rewarding myself with something meaningful have vanished. I am now left with nothing, and I feel lost. Although I still have a stable income, I am struggling to rebuild my finances and regain control of my life.
My family and friends are unaware of this situation, which is why I am choosing to express myself here. I am seeking guidance on how to overcome this addiction, save money again, and eventually provide for myself and my family. Any advice or feedback would be deeply appreciated.